Hey, Fat Girl

3 Oct

So I’ve seen this on a friend’s blog and in another forum. And this letter speaks volumes to me even now… I cry every single time I read it. I was this girl.

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Hey, Fat Girl.

Yes, you. The one feigning to not see me when we cross paths on the
running track. The one not even wearing sports gear, breathing heavy. You’re slow, you breathe hard and your efforts at moving forward make you cringe.

You cling shyly to the furthest corridor, sometimes making larger loops on the gravel ring by the track just so you’re not on it. You sweat so much that your hair is all wet. You rarely stay for more than 20 minutes at a time, and you look exhausted when you leave to go back home. You never talk to anyone. I’ve got something I’d like to say to you.

You are awesome.

If you’d look me in the eye only for an instant, you would notice the
reverence and respect I have for you. The adventure you have started is tremendous; it leads to a better health, to renewed confidence and to a brand new kind of freedom. The gifts you will receive from running will far exceed the gigantic effort it takes you to show up here, to face your fears and to bravely set yourself in motion, in front of others.

You have already begun your transformation. You no longer accept this physical state of numbness and passivity. You have taken a difficult decision, but one that holds so much promise. Every hard breath you take is actually a tad easier than the one before, and every step is ever so slightly lighter. Each push forward leaves the former person you were in your wake, creating room for an improved version, one that is stronger, healthier and forward-looking, one who knows that anything is possible.

You’re a hero to me. And, if you’d take off the blaring headphones and put your head up for more than a second or two, you would notice that the other runners you cross, the ones that probably make you feel so inadequate, stare in awe at your determination. They, of all people, know best where you are coming from. They heard the resolutions of so many others, who vowed to pick up running and improve their health, “starting next week”. Yet, it is YOU who runs alongside, who digs from deep inside to find the strength to come here, and to come back again.

You are a runner, and no one can take that away from you. You are
relentlessly moving forward. You are stronger than even you think, and you are about to be amazed by what you can do. One day, very soon, maybe tomorrow, you’ll step outside and marvel at your capabilities. You will not believe your own body, you will realize that you can do this. And a new horizon will open up for you. You are a true inspiration.

I bow to you.

 

 

 

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Ok, I must admit when I first started to read it… it rubbed me the wrong way. With the title of it being ‘Hey, Fat Girl’, I thought man that’s not a good way to address that letter but then I got down to meat of the letter. And it really made me break. I can totally relate to this. There are days that that girl still wants to come out and play and I question myself walking into the gym. It sucks. But I have to remember I’ve overcome so many obstacles, I’ve come a long way on this journey. I’ve fought and I’ve won. I won’t go back there… not ever. I’m stronger and more determined now than ever to keep going with this.

Thanks for reading!

Salina

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2 Responses to “Hey, Fat Girl”

  1. Jess Newman October 3, 2012 at 2:11 pm #

    This is great. I have so much respect for those who get out there and take control whether they are running or doing something else. 🙂 You rock woman!

    • salinaciotti October 3, 2012 at 2:29 pm #

      I know what you mean. I have so much respect too. Sometimes I want to go up to people and say you’re doing such a great job…. it’s the encourager in me. But then I think they would look at me like I’m some crazy woman and run away and never come back. big fail.

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